Frustration

I guess the best word for what I'm feeling right now is frustration. I believe that I am a good person. At least the effort I put into being a good person should count as actually being one. I try not to make judgements about people, I don't constantly ask others for help, and when I remember, I'm pretty darn honest.

So why is it that I'm so frustrated? It's because I went to visit my cousin today--completely at peace with myself because I was proud of my achievements in the past 3-4 weeks. I've held an 8 hour internship for 3 days a week, I went to school every night for another 4 hours and on weekends, I worked at my mom's restaurant. What responsibility! (Very unsual for me.) I had heard that my cousin received a brand new Mac Notebook, but I wasn't sure which one...I went there only to find that she got the Pro. Here, I paid for my own and it's still not a Pro. I mean, I love it anyway. It's done a lot of good for me. But all she did was ask her mother for one and there it was delivered to her front door step 2-3 weeks later. A pro... Keep in mind this is for someone that didn't formally graduate high school because of two failed classes.

Are we really doing the right thing by rewarding children for tiny accomplishments? All she did was pass a summer school adult class. You don't even have to try in those classes... I rarely get big presents from my parents. I mean, my dad buys me some clothes here and there, but he's in the fashion industry. How can he not? I get food from my mom, but she's a chef. It' only natural. Plus these are everyday necessities. Sure, a computer could be considered a necessity, but they had a computer. It was fine until they loaded it with stolen music and viruses.

My dad keeps telling me that I'm a better person for earning the things that I have, but it just frustrates me at how spoiled rotten today's youth is. I had one schoolmate in high school that broke her ipod and it was replaced in the same week! She didn't exactly look like an exemplary student, and if I'm mistaken, she was probably high for 7 out of 8 hours of the day. Wonderful.

Then there are all those children on My Super Sweet 16 on MTV. They whine and stomp their feet until their parents get custom upolstery on their already $80,000 Range Rovers that they don't even have licenses for. And we, the public, encourage this type of excessive rewards. For what? Making it to age 16? I know, life is hard, but I'm now nearing 20 and I haven't seen a party even a fraction of that scale thrown on my behalf and I've survived about 4 years more than they have.

I guess I just want to congratulate all you spoiled assholes for well, nothing but being pretty fucking lazy and annoying.